One of my biggest weaknesses is that I care. And I know I care far too much.
I feel like every time I write a post I always want a start with an apology. My blogging game has seriously dropped and I’m posting so much less than I did before. When I first started writing I threw everything into it. I had so much I wanted to share and I was so excited about sharing it. Now don’t get me wrong I still have that same love for sharing but I just found myself repeating ideas over and over without any fresh creativity. I guess you could say I feel into a rather long ‘blogging slump’.
However in the last few months a lot of changes has happened in my life. I’m now a lot busier and I do struggle to actually sit down and give myself some spare time to write. The thing is this is ok, I see a lot of us feeling a lil guilty for neglecting our blog but it happens. Things change and we change, and a lot of us forget our lives don’t revolve around our blog and social media presence.
I am so heavily influenced by what others think of me. As much as I like to act as if I am care free I hate people having a negative view of me. As let’s face it I am a massive people pleaser.
Friendships come and go, and if you know me you’ll know me you’ll know I’ve had my fair share of fall outs. Now this doesn’t reflect me as a person (well I hope not, I mean I’m not too bad to get along with right???) I just started to learn to stop caring about seeking their approval. A little throwback to my younger teenage years where I was in a group that really influenced me. I was influenced about how to spend my free time, to what to wear and even what to eat. Diet culture was thrown on to me, with all of us trying to eat healthy and lose weight. I started to become unhappy with myself, not because I hated my body initially, but as everyone else moaned about theirs I started to influence how I felt about mine.
Caring about fitting in and how my friends saw me became something I was invested in, 5 years on and I’m getting to the stage where I don’t really care anymore. If you feel you need to impress or change around people then stop. You don’t. After losing friends I soon started to realise I didn’t really care. If people want to be in your life then they will. If they bring negativity then honestly leave them.
When you stop giving a fuck with what others think, your confidence will boom. We all know there’s always someone ‘better’. Someone else with that fancy house, fast car, great job. You name it they always have it better than you. The minute you stop reaching for someone else and start to focus on yourself is when it all changes. Sure we all have dreams but it’s time to follow ours instead of strive for someone else’s.
Focusing on yourself should become a priority, caring about others becomes pointless. Do things because you want them and realise it’s okay to be yourself.