Single, Chubby and Happy. Three words I would never of even thought about using together.
A lot of people (me included) tend to judge their self worth through things such as relationships, weight, appearance etc. It is so hard to change that mindset and making even the slightest bit of progress is so rewarding. Being single is often something that people struggle with. We all crave affection and the stability of a relationships but equally being single can be the best thing for you. Since being single my confidence has absolutely rocketed and honestly, I’ve never felt so good about myself. I’ve been single for well over a year now and it’s been the most important factor in my growth. Since learning so much I really value my own time and I am no where near ready for this to change. Being single really allows you to learn the importance of self love and how relying on others to make you feel that boost of confidence can actually be so damaging. I’ve now got a whole load of focus on me and that what truly being single is all about.
I like the way I look. Shock, how many times do you actually hear that. Right now I am genuinely happy with my appearance and I’ve never felt better. Sure there are still things that I dislike, complain about and may be a little self conscious of now again, but we can’t all be perfect right? We all have room for some flaws and can never truly love everything about us, but appreciating yourself is something I’ve really started to enjoy. Now don’t get me wrong I know I’m really not all that, but I’ve just learnt to appreciate what I’ve got. We all out given what we are given and we sadly can’t really change that however I’m starting to realise I don’t need to chnage the way I am, and I’m channeling that to learn to love the things I use to hate.
Body confidence is something I’ve always struggled with and I honestly can’t remember a time I was happy with my body. Looking back on my timehop seeing tweets from 3-4 years ago at just the tender age of 15 moaning about how my body looked. Little would I know that my happiness and confidence would come from being at my heaviest weight. Weighing myself was something I would ritually do. I went through a stage where I would be weighing myself at least twice a day, every morning and night. The number I saw would dictate how I felt and often lead to what I would eat the next day. A year later and I’m not even weighing myself every week and I can’t really remember when I last did. Although that number has got a lot higher I’m now in the mindset where I don’t really care. Yes I do try and be healthy every now and again (failing most times) but equally I do love a good binge, and maybe a little too often!! But that’s something I learnt is ok. I’m going to get older my body’s going to change and I’m probably going to put on that ‘Uni stone’ but to me as long as I feel good about myself it really doesn’t matter.
I’m currently half way through my degree,(just a lil bit scary) but uni has honestly been the best thing for my confidence and happiness. I am seriously having the time of my life and I really don’t want it all to end. Learning to be slightly more independent while also still being able to relax and have fun has really taught me how important it is self love is. In the past 12 months I really feel as though I have changed a hell of a lot. I’ve started to not really care about what anyone thinks of me. I’m no longer afraid to do things in case of judgement from others and I’ve begun to entirely focus on what makes myself happy. I no longer take myself too seriously and laughing at myself has become a regular occurrence. But I feel so much better about myself and really could not be in a better place.