Body confidence has always been something I’ve struggled with. I’ve never been truly happy with my body and always find myself picking out everything wrong with it. This year I’ve really tried to change my mentality on how I think about myself. After writing Tackling Body Confidence at the start of the year I have started to become more confident in myself and learnt to accept who I am.
For as long as I can remember a size 8 was just the size. Ridiculous I know but I was under the impression that anything bigger was unattractive and too big. Being bigger than a size 8 was something that I was actually scared off and realising that I am was something I didn’t want to accept? Trying to squeeze into a size 8 just wasn’t happening anymore.
After realising I’ve worn a size 8 since I started wearing ‘adult’ clothes even though my prepubescent body is not the same as it is today. So why am I still forcing myself to be the same size. My body has changed a lot. I now have some sort of shape, I’m no longer a little skinny 12 year old. Sizing varies a lot from shop to shop and I remember trying on things in a size 8 that wouldn’t fit me. When this happened I was distraught, not being that size made me feel awful about myself, no matter if in the shop before the 8 was too big, not fitting in it would destroy my confidence. As I’ve grown older I’ve understood it’s okay not to be a size 8 and I often find myself buying size 10 clothes with no issue. Yes I know a size 10 isn’t big at all and I can now accept it, but getting out the size 8 is a must phase has been so beneficial. Quite often I now find myself reaching for a size 10 first, something I would be so embarrassed of a year ago. I look back and think why? My body is healthy and it’s ok being the size I am.
To me society has deemed size 8 to be the size we all want to be. We all strive for this no matter what shape we are. Bodies are all different and some of us naturally will never be able to fit in that size. Being a size 10, 12, 14 does not make anyone big at all. Some of us naturally have bigger hips or assists making it nearly impossible to fit in a size 8. You could be at fitness peak and still not be a size 8. The thing is it doesn’t matter what size you are, as long as you are happy with the body you have.
A simple size holds absolutely no worth and basing yourself off it is ridiculous. Your size shouldn’t and doesn’t matter. As a society we need to change how we think and what we portray. A size 8 isn’t everything!